I am back!

Okay, so you might think I am stupid, greedy, ridiculous. You name it, I thought it. But I love my little princess so much. Even though, now that she is a Year old, she is showing some tendencies of being a little terror! No, really. She is lovely, but like all toddlers she is starting to test her boundaries and that can be rather frustrating. It doesn't help that she is extremely proud and wants to be independent...

Anyway, we decided to try to have a little sister or brother for her. I love motherhood and my husband was quite surprised with how much he loves our little one.

We decided not to go through the full thing again though. We wanted one child to be able to be a proper family. We have this one child and I couldn't ask for a better one. But we still had 9 embryos frozen and at the time our treatment was funded by the NHS (I only needed a fresh cycle and the 2 frozen ones were still funded as part of that first cycle) so the money we saved for treatment lay in the bank account until now. So we have natural frozen embyro transfer.

End of January we had a meeting with the consultant and went through the formalities. Then the first day of my period on the 8th February. I called the hospital and told them. Day 10 I had a scan and as always my follicles looked pretty ready. A few days later my ovulation test went positive so I called again.

And last Thursday I had my transfer. It wasn't ideal as I had a big meeting with external visitors to come in all day to see me, but I had to call in sick in the morning and a colleague had to cover for me. I first said to my husband that I could say I lost a filling and need to see the dentist for an hour or two, but he reminded me that I felt pretty rough last time after the transfer and shouldn't go in at all. So I claimed both me and my daugther had a bad stomach bug.

We were lucky again - the first embryo survived defrosting. But it was only a 2 cell like our first failed attempt. My daughter was a 4 cell. I am hoping, but somehow I don't think it worked. A 4 cell has no much better chances. But a tiny bit of me is still hoping.

No pregnancy sign spotting this time. I am a lot more relaxed and calm as I know if it doesn't work I already have a lovely child. It would be said but not the end of the world.

I do have bad backpain and stomach cramps since the transfer. I don't remember this from either the failed nor the successful transfer. So I hope there isn't a problem somewhere. It might well be because I have to carry my daughter around though. Not carrying heavy things doesn't work anymore once you got a young child.

So, we'll just wait and see.