75% there

Time flies. I can't believe I am 30 weeks now. And at the same time it seems to take forever to finally be able to hold my baby. I know I am getting impatient and I know that's nonsense. I am 3/4 through this pregnancy and when I take the time trying for this little girl into account the remaining 10 weeks are no time at all.

4 weeks left at work and whilst I can't honestly say that I am too exhausted and hardly manage to get through my days as I heard from so many other pregnant women I have enough and want to stay at home. It feels kind off unreal - anything I start I know I won't be able to finish off. But it's not like when you are leaving a company as I want to come back to this - in a good year's time.

My little niece is gorgeous. She was tiny when she was born but has put on quite a bit of weight now.

Oh, last weekend I had a 3D scan. Did I write about this? I can't remember. It was amazing. I saw my little girl sticking our her tongue, rubbing her eyes, making a rude gesture (to my husbands sheer delight) and moving about in general. She looked so real. It made me emotional too, though. I want to finally hold her and be really sure that she is well. I want to comfort her and kiss her and tell her how much I love her. I tell her already, but I want to tell her to her face. I wanted this baby desperately, but I never even came close to imagine how much you can love an unborn. It shows me how incredible the love for my baby will be when I can hold her.

I am not sure if she is in the right position now. I don't think she is lying sideways anymore. At the scan she was diagonal with her head right side down. So I am hopeful. She is kicking very little, but moving about a lot and I don't know which organ you have just above the hip bones, but she is trying to move it and locate herself there...

Next week I have my bump to baby photoshoot. They asked me to bring 3 sets of clothes, but ideally with vibrant colours avoiding black and white. Yeah. Right. Most maternity clothes are black and white. So I went to mother care and bought 4 tops. My trousers are black but there is nothing I can do about that. I was lucky with Mothercare. They had an offer on with the 2nd top half price (which meant 2 tops were half price) and I just had joined their baby club and got another 5 Pound off. I had to spend much less than I though I might end up paying. I really wanted a dress but the all look like a tent. Not flattering at all. So I didn't.

Today was Sunday and I can't believe I slept the whole day off. I didn't even go swimming as I planned. Everytime I went to the couch I fell asleep. I am coping during the work week, but seem to need to catch up on the weekend. Maybe I can go swimming tomorrow after work.