Lovely

13+3

It’s official now – I am pregnant. Pretty much everyone at work knows.
It is really weird with everyone knowing and openly saying “I am
pregnant”. There were times I thought I’d never be able to say to.

On Monday I had my appointment at the Impact Clinic which very much
felt a waste of time. They checked my urine and blood pressure – I
guess it’s good to get regular checks – and everything is fine. They
said that my nuchal translucency scan didn’t show any reason for
concern. They didn’t have the blood test results but said if there
would have been an issue I would have had a call a few days later. She
explained that I will induced if the baby doesn’t arrive by week 41 as
the placenta reduces its ability to work from week 41 and as my dates
are knows exactly there is no need to risk that. She also explained
that ICSI babies sometimes are low weight and if the midwife has any
concerns I might have more appointments at the clinic. Apart from that
I’ll have my detailed scan in week 22 and a few days later an
appointment to discuss the results. But if everything is fine at the
scan I could cancel that appointment. She also talked a little about
how hard it can be for women who went through IVF to enjoy their
pregnancy and that now is the time I should relax and enjoy. It is
good to have extra appointments, but if at least they’d check my
uterus or listen for the heart… I was out of the office for 2 hours
for a 20 minute ‘chat’.

After I left I called my husband with the good news. At work my
manager called a team meeting and as part of the updates I told them
that I am pregnant. Then I went to tell my old team. Everyone is
really pleased for me and quite a few suspected. When I came back to
my desk I had a message from reception that I had a delivery. I picked
it up – my team had bought me a beautiful bunch of flowers! As I sit
close to the printer, everyone on the floor realised that something
was up and it didn’t take long for absolutely everyone to know. I am
really please how happy everyone is for me (and a little shocked that
so many people ask if it was planned…. If they knew HOW planned it
was….). I did expect quite a good reaction. We are a large company and
everyone knows that there’ll be a cover for me – it’s not as if they
have to absorb my work. I think closer to the time they’ll worry more

My husband still hasn’t told anyone. He said it was a busy day and
there wasn’t the right time. But his days are always busy. He seems to
get a bit more used to the thought of being a Daddy. I hope my feeling
is right. And I hope he starts telling people soon. Otherwise they
might be offended. But I can’t do that for him. On my side most people
know. There is still a niggling worry in my mind that things can still
go wrong, but they can go wrong till the end. And at some point you
have to make it official. And I am in the 2nd trimester after all –
and showing quite obviously….

Yesterday evening we went to the new house. We are about to sign the
purchasing contract and the current owners wanted to know if we are
interested in any furniture. The house is much bigger than ours and if
we can agree on a price we’ll take quite a bit. I am a little
concerned as my husband wants to keep the bed in the room I dedicated
as nursery. Yes, it is a good bed and we don’t have a bed for it. But
it will be the baby’s room. It’ll be at least 6 years (an
unexperienced guess) until the little one sleeps in a grown up bed,
isn’t it? So I’d rather they get rid of it and I don’t need to
decorate the nursery around a bed…. If there is an extra grown up bed
in there it will also be hard to explain a toddler why mommy won’t
sleep in his room…

I am much less exhausted now than I was a few weeks ago. And slowly
but surely the 2nd trimester – the honeymoon trimester – seems to get
better for me as well. Apart from this leg / back pain and my stuffy,
bleeding noise and my bleeding gums I seem to be quite well now. I
still go to the toilet at night or if I don’t wake up to go I wake up
in the morning ready to burst. But all in all things are getting
better and I am more relaxed. I start enjoying this pregnancy
properly.

Today is the first day for weeks I can wear my usual tops again.
Whilst my trousers stopped fitting a long time ago the tops are still
okay. But they make the bump rather obvious, so I didn’t wear them
recently. Everybody is amazed at how big I already am. The wide tops I
wore recently are all from my awkward teenage time (why did I even
keep them???) when I was embarrassed by my pretty good (non-pregnant!)
body rather than being proud of it. So I don’t really like wearing
them. I know before long I’ll have to buy maternity tops, too and
possibly a 3rd trouser. But for the moment it’s okay and I don’t
really want to buy loads of new things before we moved. It’s just more
to pack up and carry around.